[I wrote this elsewhere, but wanted it someplace where I could link to it in isolation.]
When I’m feeling very low, I can often do Focusing and bring up exactly the concern that feels hopeless or threatened.
When I feel into fear “underneath” the low energy state, the fear (which I was ignoring or repressing a moment ago), sort of inverts, and comes blaring into body-awareness as panic or anxiety, and my energy comes back. Usually, from there, I can act from the anxiety, moving to take action on the relevant underhanded concern.
[Example in my logs on April 10]
When I feel into the low energy, and there’s despair underneath, usually the thing thing that needs to happen is move that is like “letting reality in” (this has a visual of a vesicle, with some substance inside of it, which when the membrane is popped defuses and equalizes with the surrounding environment) or grieving. Usually after I do that, my energy returns.
(Notably there seems to be an element of hiding from or ignoring or repressing what’s true in each of these.)
In both cases, it sort of feels like the low energy state is the compacted from of the fear or despair, like snow that has been crushed solid. And then in doing the Focusing, I allow it to decompress.
musings and rough drafts 